My world is changing.

  Life is sure tough right now.  So many, many changes.  Laura graduated from high school last week.  We are so very proud of her.  Tom came home for the occasion.  Just before graduation ceremonies, we had a terrible hail storm.  Now we have to replace windows and a new roof.  It feels like God is testing my faith to the very end.  As of today, we have dropped the price of the house by $25,000.00.  That would have been a nice down payment on a new home.  The house remains on the market and it remains so very difficult to remain optimistic.  I am bombarded with scripture about faith and that it is trust in the unknown future.  That is SUCH a difficult task for me.  Some days it feels like God was just kidding us when he called Tom to his new job.  I am trying so hard to remember that we are called to Charlotte and that God wants us there.  He just doesn't seem to want us there very quickly.  

 On the other hand, I want to stay here forever.  This is home.  Someone was hired today to replace me at Antelope Trails.  I keep thinking "What in the world am I doing?".  I love the people here.  I am happy here. Our home seems to love us so much it won't sell.  Are we truly meant to leave this place?  I feel like I don't know where I belong. This is a hard place to be.

  I don't want to end without a picture of our beautiful graduated Senior.  Laura started work this week as a hotel housekeeper for Hyatt Place.  I can't say she likes it, but in her words "It's a job.".  I am so proud of her for doing it.  It's another bittersweet spot in my life.  So sad to see her so grown.  I keep questioning myself about all the things I have done or haven't done as her mother.  The last few years have been rocky at best.  Above all, I want her to know that I love her.  She is off to England in the fall.  Off on a big adventure. She will be spreading her wings and flying away.  Far away.  I hope I have taught her well. I hope her wings are strong enough to carry her.  I hope that she wants to come home from time to time.  I hope she thinks of home as a place of safety, peace, and love.  Wherever our home is.