Priorities

Yesterday was the big wedding I had been practicing for all week. We did it and it did not go well. We just didn't jell as a group. We were off beat and some of us were out of tune. It was not our best performance. The wedding went on and the couple got married. I don't think we ruined their special day in any way, but I realized that I just can't do it all. I think I was trying to fit it all in and I just can't . My faith and family is still number one. God keeps telling me this, but my mouth keeps saying "Sure, I would love to play for your whatever". I know I am an excellent teacher and violinist, but I can't be if I don't have the time to commit to practice. I have decided to drop from the trio. I just don't have the time. It's funny, when I say "no", it feels better inside. I played for church today and I LOVED it. God spoke to me and said "this is your passion". Play for "me". The words of a praise song that we did keep going through my head.
Here are the words: "Give me one pure and holy passion. Give me one magnificent obsession. Jesus give me one glorious ambition for my life; To know and follow hard after you." I guess that sums it up.