The Internet Man

In the last couple of weeks, my mom has had to leave her home and move to Sarasota to be near my other siblings.  I am happy for her, but I wasn't ready for the feelings all of this incurred. On top of it all, she started talking to a male friend on the internet.

It hit me once again that my Dad is gone. I want my mom to be happy but what if she hooks up with a nut?  What if that nut has children and we have to share her with them? Crazy I know, but it hurt a bit. Gotta get over it.

As it turns out, the internet friend was a nut. He told her how rich he was and how special to him she was and then promptly asked her for money. When she said no to him he told her how hurt he was. Just a nut I tell ya. She ended their chats and I was glad. Sort of. I felt sad that my mom didn't have the joy in her voice that had not appeared since my father died. She reminded me of a teenager in love.  Just as I would hate for my girls to be hurt, I hated it for my mom.

I was glad to have had the opportunity to say goodbye to Daddy in yet another way. Mom is moving on and so must I.  She no longer lives where I saw Daddy last. The next time I see her, she may have a boyfriend. Why am I so happy and so sad all at once?

I hope that my mom meets someone special that loves her and that will keep her company. I hope that I can open my heart and mind enough to let that person do these things for her. I pray that I don't get in the way of her happiness.