Grumpies

Every one of us, this morning, woke up in a bad mood. Blame it on the eclipse last night or the weather, or the side of the bed we woke up on, or whatever, but it has left me needing to go back to bed and try again. Perhaps I just need to give myself permission to be grumpy. I don't often do that. I just feel guilty for whatever I am feeling. Guilt is a BIG problem for me and most of the time, it is uneccesary. Not that I am perfect. Every day, I ask God to forgive me for many things. Most of the time, it is my mouth that gets me in trouble. Sometimes I feel like a toddler just learning to walk. I fall down a whole bunch, hoping that one day I can run.

Thanks for listening to me drone on, yesterday. Another grumpy and "feeling sorry for myself" kind of blog. Thanks Jen, for listening and calling. Jen and I talked about our blogs and how our blogs are OUR blogs. I use this as a source of therapy. It helps to see my words and thoughts. I am hoping that one day, I can use this as a journal for my girls. I want them to know that "life is hard, but God is good". I know that those who love me, understand this and ignore my droning on and understand when I get "diarrhea of the mouth".

Thanks everyone, for listening, calling, talking and just checking in by reading this. I can't tell you how much it means to me. Thanks for understanding my quirks and loving me anyway. Thanks for all of your support through the tough times. I thank my family for loving each other, taking no offense, when we all get up grumpy. Thanks for reminding me that I am a good person, when the guilt overwhelms me. Thanks for having trouble in your lives too, so that mine doesn't seem so bad. Thanks for giving me the inspiration to run so that I can be physically fit to face the world. Thanks.......

I think the fog is lifting.