Siblings

Today, my thoughts are on my siblings. I have three. I am the eldest. I have always been the mothering type and I have come to realize that is just who I am. Due to birth order or due to some genetic predisposition, I am what I am. It's not all bad. Sometimes mothering offers great reward. Sometimes, it makes others feel like they are less than adequate or they don't measure up.

Here is a big "I apologize" to anyone who feels this way due to my "mothering". I am thinking, mostly, of my siblings. I was left in charge a lot when we were children. I think this is why some of my siblings look to me for guidance or "mothering" and some consider me a "pain in the you know where". Some of my siblings have made some bad choices. Haven't we all, at some time or another? If I am a nurturing "mother" type, then I hope that my siblings know that, like a mother, I love them no matter. I will always love them. I love them when they think I do things to hurt them. I love them when they fall down. I love them when they pick themselves back up.

Today, this quote by Paul Johannes Tillich, goes out to my siblings: Tammie, Daniel and Jennifer.
"Grace strikes us when we are in great pain and restlessness...Sometimes at that moment a wave of light breaks into our darkness, and it is as though a voice were saying "You are accepted" and dare I say, LOVED.

I hope the voice you here is mine.